So it's all over. Yesterday was closing night and the cast party. The actual play went well, but everything just sort of sucked afterwards. I never realized how separated the entire cast actually was. There was so much drama and fuss about everything: "the original five," the cast party, Ms. Shell no longer directing, Lauren... just to name a few.

I'm so glad that I'm not a part of it anymore.

The cast party, the one thing I was truly excited about, was horrible because the restaurant didn't have enough tables to sit us all in one group. So five people (including myself) were excluded from the big group (about twenty). But what pisses me off the most is that there were techies and other people (random friends), who were not in the cast, at the "main" table! Honestly, what the fuck? They weren't even in the play!  My god, it was a horrible night. We felt so excluded.

Of course, there were some cool people (like Matt ) who came over to our table often and chatted with us. But otherwise, it was just wrong. I couldn't believe what happened. I'm still very much pissed about it. To the point where I'm thinking of never doing a school play again. Fuck them all, really. I just can't believe them. I don't know how much longer I'll feel this way towards them, but the whole experience has left some bad really feelings. It certainly has.

But regarding the actual performance, I thought I did well on closing night, except that my hat kept falling off to the point where, at the end of act II, I had to actually hold it up with my hand. I was quite pleased with how I did act III. My brother also came to see me, but he said the play was boring and that he "didn't get it." Well, I'm glad he's honest. (It's rather understandable. I never really liked the play in the first place). Nearly all of my friends came on Friday night. They said I was very good, but I could tell that they also didn't really like the play either.

I'm just glad it's over. That's all I can say. I thought it'd be a bittersweet ending, but it really wasn't. I told everyone that I was not going to audition for Bye Bye Birdie for sure. Some want me to do tech at the very least, but I've already decided that I'm not doing to. There are just too many overbearing factors leading me in the other direction.